I beat my mom! By half a pound! This makes Cam happy beyond belief! Yay!

Also : dude, hot boys on public transit have been checking me out all over the place. Maybe I'm noticing it more now cause I pay attention? Anyways, everyday this week there has been some guy totally staring at me.

This could also mean I have multiple stalkers. I prefer to go the "I am so hot" route.

This weekend I will hopefully be over at my sister's apartment watching ten trillion movies. She bought The Notebook so we are gonna watch that, as well as Dead Poets Society, Say Anything, and a bunch of other DVDs we both got as christmas presents. It will be awesome! We will not sleep at all!

Bright note : I found my class ring, which I though I had lost for a SECOND TIME. Turns out it was just hiding behind my computer. No worries!

I promise I will come up with something more angsty to say in my next entry. I know you all mis angsty Cam! In the meantime, blame Mandy for this :

About you
(1) Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
(3) Single?: Indeed
(4) Want to be?: Does anyone?
(5) Your birth day: 22nd of September
(6) Age you act: About 3, 3 and a half.
(7) Age you wish you were: Older
(8) Your height: 5 foot 8
(9) The color of your eyes: Blue. Grey? Green? Who even knows anymore.
(10) Happy with it?: I love my eyes. They are my favourite feature.
(11) The color of your hair: Brown. I’ve had blond and red highlights at different times in the past and you can sort of see them, but mostly it’s just mud-puddle brown.
(12) Happy with it?: I wish it was an awesome colour, like deep purple or something, but it would have to be temporary
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: Right handed
(14) Your living arrangement?: Live with my parents. And siblings. I hope to move out next year and get an apartment with my big sister, if she’s still gonna be in town then.
(27) Your family: Eh. Sometimes I think they are great, that I am really lucky to have a family of such smart and different people, but sometimes they really get on my nerves.
(29) What's your job: College student by day, Gorgeous Vixen Man-Killer by night.
(30) Piercings?: Both ears. Ooh, how daring!
(31) Tattoos?: No way.
(32) Obsessions?: You want honesty? Body image, probably. And grades. Dear Lord, I am all kinds of shallow these days
(35) Do you speak another language? French is my first language, English is my second, and since my dad speaks fluent spanish and I watched Sesame Street, I know few words of that too.
(36) Have a favorite quote?: “Put two Jews in a room and you have three opinions.” It applies to almost any culture.
(37) Do you have a webpage?: Web diary.
Life..
(38) Do you live in the moment?: I try to, I fail miserably. I am constantly going over embarassing moments of my past and physically cringing, even if they happened years ago.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: I accept differences, I love diversity, unless they are Separatists (Quebec polital party), then I beat them up.
(40) Do you have any secrets?: Tons.
(41) Do you hate yourself?: Not anymore. I am fairly awesome these days.
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: I find it looks like kindergartener’s writing, but apparently it’s very nice and “clear”, which teachers love.
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: Nail biting. I am trying to stop, I even got the gross tasting nail polish!
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: They say I have beautiful eyes.
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: “How to be awesome”
(46) What's your biggest fear?: That I will finish school and have no idea what to do.
(47) Can you sing: I can hold a note. I have a pretty well developped ear. I don’t think I have a great voice but I have performed a few times so I guess it is at least acceptable.
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: I was a completely different person at summer camp. It’s my escape.
(49) Are you a loner?: Is the Pope decrepit?
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Probably not. I don’t find me very approachable, though I am a great friend when I am given the chance.
(52) Are you a daredevil?: No way. I get scared standing too close to the subway rails.
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: I have a very easy crying reflex. I can’t stop it. It makes me look much more melodramatic than I am. Even as I’m crying I’m trying to tell people that it’s okay, it’s just a reflex and it’s out of my control, but they immediately think I;m emotionally unstable or something.
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: Passive. Well, I am agressive in my head, but I rarely exteriorize it.
(55) Have you got a ?: Have YOU?
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? Invisibility. I can adapt into any situation, but then again, I tend to disappear in the background.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: My nose.
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: Creativity. I wish I could be one of those starving artists who think shit up all day long, but unfortunately I am cursed with more conventional imagination.
(59) How do you vent?: Cry, beat up my pillow. Sometimes I talk to actual living people, but rarely.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: No. As I said, easy crying reflex.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Most of my high school, actually. I regret not getting to know more people better, cause by the time I met them it was too late.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? I hope it’ll get better, but it’s been bearable up to now.
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: If you want it done right, you gotta do it yourself.
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: My eyes. And my legs. I have great legs.
(65) And least?: My nose, you dummy. You asked that already.
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: These days? Yes.
(67) Are you confident? These days? Yes.
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: Amy from Everwood on the WB. Minus the cute green jacket.
(69) Do people know how you feel?: No, I don’t really share emotions. Most people I know have a very superficial understanding of how I feel.
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: Yeah, people always think I am super depressed because I’m often very quiet, but I just don’t talk alot.
Do you...
(71) Smoke?: Ew. No. Never have, never will.
(72) Do drugs?: Definitely not. I cherish all my brain cells.
(73) Read the newspaper?: Sometimes. Mostly I just skim it. But I read Time Magazine, and I consider myself pretty up to date with current affairs.
(74) Pray?: When I’m feeling especially alone in the world I will pray to whoever is out there, but my beliefs aren’t very clearly mapped out so I’m not sure who I’m praying to.
(75) Go to church? On Christmas Eve.
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: Yeah. Most of them are creepy French dudes who got my email from a dating site I have never been to, I have no idea how it got there.
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: On some rainy nights, i grab my teddy from the dresser and cuddle up.
(78) Take walks in the rain?: Only when I need to get somewhere.
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: Only when obligated.
(80) Drive?: Yes. It is actually quite soothing.
(81) Like to drive fast?: My mom worries about me when I’m out on the highway, but if the roads are clear and there is no ice sometimes I go pretty fast.
Have you...
(82) Liked your voice?: Not really. It sounds off-pitch to me.
(83) Hurt yourself?: I have an obsession with scratching my scabs. Sound gross? You haven’t seen them.
(84) Been out of the country?: Only a few times, and never overseas
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: I am pretty daring food-wise. I am no Fear Factor contestant, but I have been known to eat some gross stuff. You know, brains, snout, tongue, testicles.
(86) Burped?: Not loud or long, but yes.
(87) Been unfaithful?: No. Hell, I’ve had ONE relationship, and I was lucky to even have that.
(88) Been in love?: Yes
(89) Done drugs?: No
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: Yes
(92) Had a surgery?: Dental surgery.
(93) Ran away from home?: No
(94) Played strip poker: I don’t even know how.
(95) Gotten beaten up?: Yes, by my sister, many times.
(97) Been picked on?: Oh dear god yes, I have always been a loser.
(98) Been on stage?: A couple of times, in plays in elementary
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: Um, no.
(100) Slept outdoors?: Yes. Yay camp!
(101) Thought about suicide?: Sort of. I’ve thought about it, but not considered it or anything.
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: Yes, technically. Everytime I have slept about 15-20 minutes in the morning, like after 8, so I didn’t actually sleep during the night.
(103) If yes, what is your record?: 8 AM
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: No. Maybe IM conversations, but I don’t do well on the phone.
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: Yes.
(107) Slept all day?: Not exactly slept, but stayed in bed all day, yes.
(108) Killed someone?: Who’s asking?
(109) Made out with a stranger?: No.
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: No.
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: VERY OFTEN.
(112) Kissed the same sex?: No.
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: No.
(114) Been betrayed?: Yeah. Oh the sixth grade drama!
(115) Had a dream that came true?: No. I am still bummed about not getting a dog.
(116) Broken the law?: I stole a pack of erasers from a store when I was six. It still haunts me to this day.
(117) Met a famous person?: I met the guys from Simple Plan cause they were friends with my brother, and I met the girls of Baby Spice, a french group of teenyboppers that emulated the Spice Girls. Oh yeah, they are super famous I tell you.
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: I hope not. Except spiders and some flies.
(146) Stolen anything?: See above.
(147) Been on radio/TV./newspaper?: I’ve been on TV maybe once, with my school choir.
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: Yes, it is awesome, unless you are holding a drink or a bag or something. And make sure your shoes are tied.
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: Sometimes I feel like nothing is going right and my mind is all over the place. Does that qualify?
(150) Considered religious vocation?: My career test told me I was best suited for a job as “a therapist or a nun”.
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: Um, no.
(152) Bungee jumped?: No, I don’t really understand why I would want to risk all kinds of whiplash and blood rushing to my head.
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yeah, but only the bad ones come back.
Clothes..
(154) Shoe brand?: I got some nice Roxy shoes at Winners.
(155) Brand of clothing?: Yay Old Navy! Where stuff fits me and they have bright colours!
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Gap So Pink
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: Jeans. Shirts. It’s pretty much always jeans, because I invest in nice jeans and prefer to spend my money and novelty shirts. I have a bazillion shirts.
(159) Wear hats?: Not really. My head is above average size
(161) Wear make-up?: Sometimes, when I have a reason.
(162) Favorite place to shop?: Old Navy and Winners! Yay!
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: My awesome pink and green striped long-sleeved shirt.
(164) Are you trendy?: I like to think so. I am definitely not a sheep.
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: I did, for many years, and although it had good aspects, I HATED IT.
Beliefs..
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: Yes.
(167) Miracles?: No.
(168) Astrology?: No, that stuff is trash.
(169) Magic?: No, I’ve seen all those “Magic Tricks EXPOSED!” shows on TV
(170) God?: I believe in a higher power, not necessarily God because there are a lot of strings attached to believing in God.
(171) Satan?: No.
(172) Santa?: No. But that would be awesome though, wouldn’t it?
(173) Ghosts?: No. But I am afraid of the dark.
(174) Luck?: Yes.
(175) Love at first sight?: Not love, it’s too big a word. Maybe attraction? I definitely beleive in the whole chemical attraction that happens randomly between two people.
(176) Yin and Yang?: They are both nice people.
(177) Witches?: Is that with a capital B?
(178) Easter bunny?: Uh-huh, I definitely believe in a huge bunny leaving chocolate eggs for litle children.
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: I don’t think I’m qualified to answer that.
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: I have been looking for it all my life.
(181) Do you wish on stars?: When I go up north and see lots of stars, I make a million wishes, but they rarely come true.
Love..
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: Not really. I have pretty much talked about my relationship so much I’ve been drained of all emotion.
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yes
(184) Still love him/her?: No, not really. I miss his presence though
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: No. I say love with all your heart, don’t be scared of getting hurt cause you’ll never have any fun.
(186) What do you find romantic?: Thoughtfulness and surprises. If a guy does something I haven’t outright asked him to do, that is very romantic.
(187) Turn-on?: Nice arms and smiles.
(188) Turn-off?: Weird smells and hair placement.
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: More often then I’d like.
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: Unless there was something really really wrong with the relationship, I would still go for it.
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: I would love to meet a stranger and tell him all about myself without him knowing me previously.
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: What is this, 1954?
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: I didn’t know it at the time, but yes.
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: I hope so. I think I look okay.
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: Hugs. Hugs from boys are the best.
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: You never know what they’re thinking.
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? Christmas presents.
(208) Are you in love?: No.
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: Not applicable ...
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: Ogle.
Who was the last person..
(211) That haunted you?: My ex-boy
(212) You wanted to kill?: My mommy dearest
(213) That you laughed at?: My friend from school when she fell asleep while reading her book.
(214) That laughed at you?: In a nice way? My friends for screwing up my singing exam.
(215) That turned you on?: Hots boys on the bus!
(216) You went shopping with?: My older sister.
(217) That broke your heart?: Me. I broke my own heart because I made a decision that, even though it was for the best, hurt me deeply.
(218) To disappoint you?: My ex for being such an asshole.
(219) To ask you out?: See above.
(220) To make you cry?: My mom, because I’ve been feeling crappy and she yelled at me for not cleaning my room.
(221) To brighten up your day?: The guy in the subway who was checking me out.
(222) That you thought about?: See above!
(223) You saw a movie with?: My sister.
(224) You talked to on the phone?: My sister.
(225) You talked to through IM?: My friend’s sister. God I am a loser.
(226) You saw?: My little sister.
(227) You lost?: OMG, the redundant questions.
(229) You thought was completely insane?: Christine Cushing, on the Food network.
(230) You wanted to be?: Rori Gilmore on Gilmore Girls.
(231) You told off?: The ex
(232) You trusted?: My sister.
(233) You turned down?: My sister. I have typed that word so many times ...
When was the last time you..
(234) Smiled?: Today, when I was looking in the mirror.
(235) Laughed?: Today when I was reading webcomics.
(236) Cried?: Just now, when my mom yelled at me.
(237) Bought something?: My cute skirt, weekend before last. Oh and I went grocery shopping with my sister the other day.
(238) Danced?: Today, on the sidewalk walking home from the bus.
(239) Were sarcastic?: I am in constant sarcasm mode.
(240) hugged someone?: I haven’t the foggiest idea
(241) Talked to an ex?: A couple of weeks ago, probably.
(242) Watched your favorite movie?: That would be Serendipity with John Cusack, and I watched it last summer
(243) Had a nightmare?: I haven’t been remembering my dreams much lately
(245) Talked on the phone?: A couple of days ago.
(246) Listened to the radio?: Last night, I always listen to the Comedy Hour on AM radio before going to sleep.
(247) Watched TV?: About 10 minutes ago. I watched She’s All That ...
(248) Went out?: You mean outside?
(249) Helped someone?: Recently, with a math problem.
(250) Were mean?: I am mean all the time.
(251) Sang?: Today, at my singing test.
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: Oh dear ... it must’ve been January. See, I can’t even remember which movie now.
(253) Said "I love you"?: Not long ago.
(254) Missed someone?: Recently.
(255) Fought with a family member?: My sister, because she was being a damn bitch.
(256) Fought with a friend?: I don’t have friends close enough to fight with, really.
(257) Had a serious conversation?: Weekend before last, over coffee.
(258) Got drunk?: Never ...
(259) Had sex?: Ever.