This has been the worst day ever ...

First of all, this morning, I lost the sheet I'm supposed to send in to sign up for my cegep classes, so I have to find a way to get another one, or not attend cegep. And do I have time to do that? Hell no. Exams start tomorrow, and I haven't started studying yet, and ... I'm gonna die.

THEN, I went to school and got an english project back. The teacher went in front of the class and said "I'm sorry, class, but you've all failed the project." And then, after everyone was done picking their jaws up off the floor, she shouted "April Fools!".

Except it wasn't one for me. I actually failed the goddamn thing. One of the rare projects I actually spend time on and I fail. Fuck, fuck, fuck fuck fuck.

And last, but definitely not fucking least, the boy. God, the boy. We've had this slight disagreement for a while because he never wants anyone who's in any way related to his family to know about us. So what does he do? He pushes me away. He pretends he doesn't fucking know me.

And you know what the WORST is? Today, I go up and say hi and kiss him, and he hits me with this :

"Cam, you mean a lot to me, but I can't handle the pressure of trying to hide our relationship. If my mom finds out, I won't hear the end of it, and we'll have to stop seeing each other. That's why I think it's best if we just stop right now."

Then he hugged me and said goodbye. I can't believe it ... Fuck I feel horrible. I'm sad, but I can't cry, I don't know why ... I kept hoping someone would come up to me and tell me this was all some fucking sick April Fool's joke, but alas, that didn't happen.

I don't know what I feel right now ... All I want to do is lie in the dark for a couple of hours and think.

I mean, can you fucking believe the irony? The world is turning against me.

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Oh, and by the way, APRIL FOOLS!

Phew, I've always wanted to do that ...